Mother's Day

So Mother's Day is fast approaching...what a gift, being a mother that is. It is such a blessing and joy to be a mom. Yes, I will be the first to admit it has its crazy, hectic, and chaotic moments but all in all...it is wonderful and I would never take it for granted. My children are my world, my number one priority in life....They come before any and everything. I can't stop staring at them, looking at those features on those tiny little bodies that my husband and I created...the little pieces of me. I grew these little creatures in my womb, I gave them life, and I will protect them forever. Each one has their own little quirk and personality; nothing brightens my day more than seeing these tiny people bloom everyday, even if it is Kailah and her crazy "fits". I wouldn't change them...not one bit.

I want nothing more in this world than to be an amazing mom. My mother is...I can't even put into words what she is because she is that amazing. An angel in disguise. She is my bestest friend and I look up to her so much. I hope I can be half the woman she is. My mother is always there, through thick and thin...my saving grace when the world feels like it's collapsing below me. She is my strength.... always pushing me to do better, go further, and never settle. She has the biggest heart that sometimes gets taken advantage of but because she is a child of God, she forgives them and prays. She has a strong will and determination, always wanting to help the less fortunate. She would give her up her last penny if it helps to put a smile on someones face. She is awesome and I can't thank her enough for all that she has done. If I could give her the world...I would, in a heartbeat. <3

This mothers day I don't want anything money can buy...Lord knows I could use a shopping spree, a hair trim, a massage, and mostly my eyebrows threaded lol but no, I really just want to soak in the love and laughter of my children. They are growing so fast, too fast...and it's beginning to hit me...hard. I regret a lot, wish I did more but most importantly I promise to be better and do more with them. That glass of spilled juice...let's clean it up together, the flooded bathroom from too much toilet paper....let's laugh about it, the temper tantrums....let's all take a deep breath and hug...for a long long time. And most importantly mommy promises to take better care of herself, for the sake of her children. My number one goal is to get back on my "happy medication" so I can come out of my dark hole and be a better woman, wife, daughter, sister, and mother. I tend to focus on my childrens well being and health forgetting that my own health is declining quickly before me. So this mothers day I want to focus on getting better for my children and savoring their little moments. I love how they see small things and turn them into such big creative things using their imaginitive little minds. They don't ask for much, just to be loved and guided in the right path. If I could keep them little forever, I would but then again it is so beautiful to watch them blossom into their own independent beings. I know the day will come, as it has happened already, when anger strikes and they shout, "I hate you"....and I will do as my own mother once did and smile, responding, "oh but I still love you!"

I hope they know how much I love them and that I will always, always fight for them...with every last breath I have, I will hold onto them and fight for them. They are so beautiful, so smart, so silly and have so much wonder in life. I hope they never  lose any of it and never change for anyone.

Thank you God for blessing me with three precious children. I will forever cherish them and their little moments.

 Happy Mother's Day!