IDK what happened to 4,5,6 but I'm still here

OOPS

Kinda got side tracked and didn't keep y'all updated with a new blog everyday

Well truthfully...

 

I had a lot going on (mentally) and just put it off.

Reading other peoples blogs helps me get back to what I love most!

 

WRITING! YAY!

 

Before I forget..

bless her sweet heart!

Amirah has ALWAYS been a sleep talker and sleep walker.

When she is REALLY REALLY tired, that's when it is worse.

 

We usually just walk her on back to her room

however it can get dangerous as she usually ends up walking out the front or back door.

 

Like tonight...

she is exhausted as she had a super fun day with a friend

Well she came home and went straight to bed.

I stay up late

ya know,

Facebookin & Pinnin' :giggles::

 

Next thing I know I hear the front door opening and my heart sinks to my stomach

I go into full raccoon mama mode

flyng over the sofa like a squirrel monkey

only to see

Amirah...

sleep walking with her blanket trying to escape out the front door

She's asleep but she answers me

 

me: hey where are you going?

mira: huh? uhh taking my blanket to my room

me: you are going out the front door...

mira: *eyes staring blankly as she is in mid sleep* huh?

she walks to room where she collapses on her bed.

 

AHH! I always fear I wont be up when she does that...I need an alarm or something. :/

 

BTW I am watching Honey Boo Boo ( a marathon) as I write this

SO HILARIOUS!

I laugh everytime even if I have seen it a million times already.

 

So lately things have been..

well okay I guess

 

photography is slow

who am I kidding?

it's dead

stupid weather

 

Nathan is doing better...he still has a horrile cough but last week it was soooo bad

ended up having him tested for Pertussis

I will get the results back this week

Yes, he has 3 of his 4 shots

but he's still not protected

especially in a crazy world of anti vaxers

 

Poor guy.

But he is doing great now!

I still havent done any first birthday pictures but I want to wait until hubby comes home.

 

I did however pull out the camera

which took me forever to find under all the dust

and take pictures of my kiddos

OHmahgeeeerd

taking pics of your own children

by yourself

sleep deprived

and hungry (ok, ok kidding on that lol)

is HARD!

I will hire a pro next time! ::wink wink::

 

So hubby is back in Texas...he's working out at ..uhh

Pleasanton, Tx

Not sure if I ever explained what hubbs does but

he is a wire line operator

he builds 200 plus guns a day

these guns are built using dynamite which makes the job super dangerous!

::gulp::

Recently there was an explosion and it seriously injured two men.

It wasn't the company my husband was with

but my heart still aches for the families.

 

Right now they are working in contract with one company where their shifts are 24 hour shifts

He sleeps in a hotel in Beeville and works 3am-3am 24 hr shifts.

I never get to talk to him because he is either working or sleeping

occassionally we get 5 minutes for a quick chat

I will be glad when this job ends and he can come home and catch up on rest

Then when he goes back, they work with Shell

shifts are 12/12 (i think...who knows, oilfield is always the unknown)

YAY!

 

So as some of you know

I have been trying to get a job

Randy said I could stay home

BUT

no

I NEED one

for my sanity

so I have been applying but the positions go FAST! womp womp

I have faith though the right one will come along!

Ok I never posted this blog yesterday so we will do two days in one blog.
haha

Hubby surprised us this morning.
Bless his heart,
he got off his 24 hour shift at 3am,got to his hotel at 5 am
showered and
drove home to visit
it was nice seeing him for a few hours.
I'm like a highschool teenager
all shy and giggly
butterflies in my tummy from the excitement of seeing him!
we go weeks
and to finally be able to make eye contact
see each other
hug him
bittersweet

And even better to watch the kids squeal with excitement

The hardest part is saying goodbye.


His birthday is coming up and I have NO IDEA what to get him
not only is it his birthday
BUT
Valentines Day
& our 9 yr anniversary (not wedding, just time we have been a couple)

WHEW
I think I might do something creative
ya know
cute ideas off Pinterest
::insert heart::

So lately with Randy being gone
we have a little routine and I am trying to cut out junk from the house
not completely but majority
well except i keep a hidden stash for myself
muahahaha
but the kids LOVE Nutella sandwiches
bananas
grapes
veggie sticks (thanks Machelle!)
yogurt
and ABC pretzels


I also have them drinking lots of water
not to mention cutting sodas down for me as well
no wonder I have turned into a raging
beyatch
rAwR!
But coffee is a
MUST
I will not survive
without
no exceptions
and not any coffee...no, no
the one and only
Starbucks
delish!
bitter and dark with some sweetness is the way I like it!

I have the Verismo
and I LOVE IT!
saved me tons of money already!

Well I guess my rambling is down for the night...
I am exhausted!
and no pictures tonight bc BLOGGER is being weird
BOO on them!

Here's a question
What is something you cant live without?

 

 

 

 



Day 3: Song of Solomon

rough night with Nate again

I don't know what it is but he just cant comfort himself back to sleep

it's not so much wanting the bottle but almost like he's hurting or having a bad dream

He has GI issues so I dont know if he flares up at night from whatever he ate or what's wrong

but he doesnt have an appointment until March.

 

And the girls are both about to go crazy

the weather is so dull

no sun

it rains here and there

and it's cold

They are so bored and ready to go back to school.

5 more days!

 

And as always,

it seems this year has started off to a rough start

Again

Randy got a call this morning

He leaves tomorrow sometime

well Randy being ...well Randy and not listening to his wife

haha

sold his truck

so...

he's without a vehicle and he has to be in Beeville tomorrow

Apparently they go to Beeville then drive up to PA to get their stuff and drive back down where they will work in Beeville or Laredo?

IDK

i am just as confused as you all are.

But it completely messes up our schedule

bleh

BUT we will get through it

They did get another contract!

yay

and it's

SHELL! *claps and does happy dance*

 

So today we just kind of hang out at home

he helps me do laundry

we kind of just walk around in silence though you can feel each others tension and sadness

ocassionally saying, "what if" or "i wonder if"..."maybe this will happen.." or

::sigh::

two months he's been home

and it's time for him to go again

not sure the schedule or how all this works but it's frustrating to someone who NEEDS a schedule

who plans everyday with a list

not to mention

we are a super close tight knit family

as much as we want to rip each others throats out

we long to see each other everynight

our routines

our traditions

it's rough

 

We did some heavy thinking and planning for our future

I can't be a SAHM

it's not for me

in fact, I really think it's why I am always so snappy

 

I love my children...Lord knows I would die for them

They are my backbone

my everything

the air I breathe

the reason I move forward in life

 

BUT

I was born to be in the work field

to make my share of money

and help with the bills

to be INDEPENDENT

and

to get my sanity back

SAHM is a difficult job

it's wonderful

but

hard

 

So I officially decided to get back out in the "work world"

I think it will make me happier and keep me busy

Prayers my way as I apply for this particular position I am hoping to get.

it's perfect.

the hours are awesome

the place is great

and

I can bring in some income ::Phew::

 

Oh and about an hour ago...hubby got a call that...well he leaves tonight

::sigh::

 

this is how it works

always

we never know when or where or how long

but it can make or break our relationship

9 years we have been together

and well

we are stronger than we have ever been

Like I said before...i'm not materialistic

Randys engagment ring to me was perfect

I didnt pick it

he did

it's not my style

but HE picked it

and omg I love it

 

When we got married we got out wedding bands and well about a year or so ago he took his off to wash his hands and he left it by the sink in a corner store.

oops

we both laughed...because that is him. His mind is always forgetting.

 

We decided to get new rings...well for him but I wanted to have matching someway

 

so we went with the Song of Solomon

"I am my beloved and my beloved is mine"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

not the exact script but similar

 

it fits us perfect

We don't parade around our relationship

instead soak in each others silence

staring

smiling

and giggling

 

I am so glad these rings came in before he left

it leaves me with peace

 

you may all be like

"oh gawsh woman get over it"

 

and well no,

you get over it or exit the blog

 

I have a very strong bond with my husband

He is a huge family man

He NEVER in the 9 years we have been together has gone out with friends

He doesn't drink

He doesn't smoke

no drugs

he's faithful

he's an amazing father

He never puts me down

always compliments me

 

He works this job to support our family

and get us where we can settle and be comfortable

and we are so blessed.

 

 

so tonight before he leaves

I ask him what he wants for his "last meal"

lol

and I cook it and we sit at the table as a family and talk, eat, and enjoy each others company

explaining to the kids how long daddy will be gone and we arent sure when he will be back but when he does,

it will be a surprise!

And we will celebrate!

but we can Tango with daddy

and this time

he stays in Texas!

 

 

 

 

 



Day2: Redbox and Carl Jrs

Apparently Nathan was amused that I got a great night of sleep the night before because last night, he was back to his old routine of waking every 3 hours for a bottle or just for comfort.

 

::rips hair out and sips coffee::

 

Overall though the kid is doing better.

He still gets his usual round of meds and every now and then feels bleh but he is better.

 

Over the past week he has soaked in so much

He claps

He says "thank you" in his own giberish of course

he shakes his head no

loves a good game of chase

has grown very close and attached to his "daddeeee" (:

 

His favorite routine is running to each of the girls' rooms to see what is going on and to join in on their fun...all while of course being a little brother and destroying anything and everything they could possibly be enjoying at the moment.

 

hahaha

 

Today as Randy and I just chilled in our jammies and watched Redbox movies, he napped or played around the house.

ate an orange like a dainty soul *he gets that from his dad* hahaha

and teased Cooper through the glass.

He may or may not have eaten random things off the floor ::shrugs::

I'm not one of THOSE mothers who goes bananas over crap like that

He eats a bug?

good protein

dropped his baba in the dirt?

ah, building his immunities

 

No, I don't do cart covers,I have never used a changing table (what the hell are the point of those anyways) I dont carry hand sanitizer, I bottle feed, use disposable diapers, and he may not be wearing socks if it is 30 degrees out.

It's just not something I go nuts about.

i'm  a laid back mama

 

So we are trying to watch our movies...

amirah pretty much hangs out in her room or goes in and out throughout the day playing outside with Coop. And Kailah...

Well today is a "bleh" day for her.

Somehow she is off and therefore a cranky pants.

Asking the same question over and over

 

Is it 5pm yet?

no

Its not?

no

why not?

because its noon

so its not 5 yet?

NO

I'm sorry

ok

its not 5?

no kailah, Iwill tell you when it is

is it close?

no

i'm sorry

ok, love you

when is it 5?

in a few hours (points to clock to show her when)

can we go now?

no

i'm sorry

ok kailah

can I eat?

yes, your lunch is still on the table

is it 5?

No, kailah

i'm sorry

ok

 

 

And this continues THROUGHOUT the WHOLE day.

I will praise God and celebrate with the biggest glass of wine while sitting in the gym at 5pm this evening.

 

School has been out too long so she's getting off routine and antsy causing this "rough repetitive pattern" at home.
HOWEVER
5pm came
and
we drive to WESTWOOD
it's closed
::shoot me::
I just sit in the parking lot
The girls are like uh mom where is everyone??
I explain that they don't reopen from the holiday until next week.
Oddly enough
they dont freak out...sad but they have come to terms with it
So we decide to go and grab some dinner which of course Randy wants Carl Jrs
He is obsessed with the double Memphis burger
To me it tastes the same as Burger King but more expensive

Nathan finally starts enjoying food again, though we didnt get him a meal this time. Just let him nibble off ours. And then he wanted an orange.

 

This kid is just like his sisters...loves him some fruit!

 

And just in case you were wondering..

our Redbox included

Batman The Dark Knight Rises

*Eh, it was ok...my favorite is still from the 90s, you know the one where Michelle Pfieffer played catwoman. Loved it!

The Words

Awesome movie! Takes some deep thinking, you will enjoy if you have a love for writing

Total Rekall

a remake from the 90s...not bad but still...whats with the remakes?

 

 

 

 



Day 1: Black Eyed Peas and Baths with our diaper on

So it's officially day one...

whew I am ready!

 

So Nate slept ALL night

haha

yep, jinxed myself and the kid slept for the first time through the night.

He's feeling good!

Though he still has his down moments when the meds where off.

Btw we have to trick him into taking his medicine by using a WhatAburger cup filled with  a little juice and the rest is a mixture of his medicines.

The ONLY trick he hasn't caught onto yet.

muahaha

 

 

his nice little concoction of meds (:

 

Oh I have to show off my Pinterest projects! :)

For Christmas I got creative...and put together a handy basket with some goodies inside for my parents.

 

 

Thanks Pinterest!

Little adorable plants in mason jars

&

Sunshine cookies in a jar!

UM presh!

Amirah helped me pick them out. (:

 

 

And then these BEAUTIFUL words that you stick on the wall.

My sister gave them the gorgeous cross!

I want some of these words though!

LOVE IT!

 

So for NY we always go to my parents house where we celebrate and enjoy champagne

or mimosas, black eyed peas, and cabbage!

 

found these precious 2013 cookies on sale at Kroger and couldn't pass them up.

BOY did they go quick too!

 

 

We don't have just ANY black eyed peas and cabbage...

This cabbage is an AMAZING cabbage casserole that is to die for!

Even if you hate cabbage, you will LOVE this!

eating leftovers as we speak! (:

And the black eyed peas...

this year my mom slow cooked em with some ham and rotel!

mm mm somebody slap paula dean these are gosh darn good!

 

We played a FUN game of APPLES TO APPLES

I don't usually play board games but man that is a fun one!

 Amirah even played and had fun (almost winning)

Kailah sat and played by her lonesome as always with all the little toys and Nate caught up on sleep that he missed over the last few days.

 

 

 

As you can see, Kai is sporting a "side braid"

She is very...um

demanding and orders me on how I should do her hair every day and well

the side braid is a HUGE deal right now. Though she hates wearing it over her shoulder as she states,

"it itches"

::shrugs::

 

That evening we got home and the kids took a bath...well the girls did...and Nathan soon heard the water, followed the sound, played with a few toys, before...KA PLUNK...he dove in..diaper on (it even had a poopy in it) the girls screamed in disgust as I giggled and snapped shots.

UM cuteness!

 

 

something about this photo makes my heart melt..

maybe it's the swirls of curls in his hair or

the fact that he is in his diaper in the tub

or just the amazing innocent squishy boy in general

::sigh::

I could just eat him!

 

So it is the first day in 2013...whew!

As many of you know Randy works in the oil field.

The company he works for is based out of Beeville which is an hour outside of Victoria. He worked in Beeville for a few months but the company got a job in PA and asked Randy if he wanted to go up there to work. More money so he said yes.

It was hard and stressful but I made the best of it. They didnt have a "schedule" but eventually it would be 3 weeks on 1 week off. Well, Randy has been home since late November and hasn't gone back since. He just waits for a phone call saying, "it's time to go".

I even put off sessions because I figured he would go back sometime soon maybe even this week.

BUT

phone rang today

the boss

He says

"no more PA...something happened and they lost the contract with them"

 

Ok

Let me brief you more on this job

The company has sales people who go out and find "customers"/"contracts"

to work for and then once the contract is in place then Randy and his crew get to work.

Problem is, you have to keep the customer happy...

and well, if that doesnt happen

then you lose the customer.

so the sales people are back out again to find a new customer.

However Randys company has little contracts scattered everywhere (PA was the big one)

There is one in West Texas (Odessa) and that is where he (and his team) will go in a few weeks until they get another contract.

 

I'm still learning so much about this job

Randy gets salary so no matter what, he is getting paid. *phew*

Though the best money comes into play with his bonus

 So he still works for the same company just no more PA right now

He will be in Tejas. lol

 

 

so anyways Randy is home for a little while longer so now I can start doing sessions again.

I should probably get off this blog because I have procrastinated and have yet to call and make the kids appointments that they have needed.

 

A few more things about me....

 

My favorite color is green. I drive a Ford but prefer a Chevy. I was kidnapped as a child. I have two brothers and a sister. My favorite movie as a child was the Wizard of Oz. I have a learning disability (expressive and receptive language disability). I never match my shoes to my outfit. I like my nails extra short.

 

And now on to DAY 2