What a LONGGG week it has been!
Whew I am super exhausted. I just want to crash on my sofa all weekend but that is a no can do!
Miss Annabelle is growing up so fast! I discovered she had an allergy to wet food. Anytime she ate it or touched it, her body reacted. So I switched to dry kitten kibble and she is doing wonderful!
It is time to find her a home now!
She WAS going to go with her previous founder but they had a change of heart.
Just know I do not give her to just ANYONE.
So if I tell you no, don't make it personal.
She is MY baby and I have a tiny bit of trust.
Not to mention there IS a rehoming fee.
$30...she will be spayed, vaccinated, have clean bill of health, and wormed.
Not a bad deal!
So it is midterm time for school and I feel like it's just all a huge whirl wind.
As stated before, I am the "best" procrastinator.
I write my 1200 page essays in 45 minutes every time.
Freaking out. maybe some swearing. hating myself. overdosing on coffee.
and then I make an A.
never fails.
I did decide to drop my History class. I was failing horribly and I just don't have time
to LOVE history the way the professor wants us to.
I can study but I can't become obsessed like he expected so
I dropped.
I HATE dropping classes. I feel like a failure.
Idk what is worse....dropping or failing.
ugh.
I still beat myself up over it but I am learning it will all be okay.
Speaking of school.
I was supposed to start substituting right?
well the paperwork takes FOR.EV.ER
Finally got fingerprinting done and got around to driving down to Rosenberg to
turn in paperwork and the little secretary got an attitude with me.
And now a days....I just do not handle well attitude at all.
Either I go off or I just run away from the situation before it gets ugly.
Well I ran.
Calmed down finally and still deciding if I should go back.
I will. I just need to be in a good mood.
People these days are just so rude and honestly I can't deal with authority figures being rude.
I can deal with regular people but authority figures...
NO.
This is not boot camp. You are not my mama.
Do not get an attitude with me.
So all this (plus a lot more) just has me seriously thinking.
Remember how I said I am soooo indecisive?
Yeah...well here I am again.
I can't make up my mind.
I fear choosing one direction and it's the wrong one.
There's so much weighing heavy on my mind and I am not getting any younger.
I hate the woe is me party.
And I am sooo not woe is me right now.
I just am stuck at a fork in the road and trying to decide which path to take...ya know?
Eh, I will figure it out I guess.
Um so I officially have a preteen.
I nearly died yesterday.
I picked up Amirah from tutorials and rushed her to guitar practice.
She hops in the car and shes all, "mom hit that button, I need to hear my music on my ipod" and then proceeds to roll the window down, shout out at a friend, and giggle saying, "omgosh I can't believe her party is in a few days...I am SO excited!"
I eventually figure out what button she is talking about and she goes, "yeah, that's it!" and turns the volume up, window is still down, and Katy Perry starts blaring out loud.
Mind you...I listen to ONLY country. My husband...well he switches it up so I am sure that is where she found Katy Perry.
And she gets to swinging her hips, doing sassy arm movements, and blaring the lyrics outloud like the typical teenager.
Right then...
that very moment I got the BIGGEST lump in my throat.
She will be 10 soon.
TEN!
No more single digits yall!! She will be double digits!
All my friends are popping out infants or have toddlers and I have a PRETEENAGER!
::sigh::
T.E.N.....I hate you 10.
She's officially not a baby girl anymore. I fix her hair and she moans under her breath and shyly un-does her pony at the bus stop. She slams her door, wants her own space now, yells at her sister, and does the whole "ugh" thing now. She's also making friends, growing up, excelling in school, and curious about the other gender.
I might die.
seriously...just bury me now.
Hormones are coming yall and I want them gone.
UGH!
BTW...keep your sons away.
I will beat them with a shovel.
So anyways, she is blaring Katy Perry and we pull up to the guitar lessons and I said, "oh it ended just in time" and she says, "I know, right?!"
STOP GROWING UP!! :,(
And please don't say, "ohh I told you you would miss the small days"
That's the WORST thing to say to a mama whose kid is growing up. Save it for my funeral.
So besides the fact that my oldest is growing up, she is starting swim team soon and EVER so excited. I was looking at her baby shower and infant pictures and bawling.
How I WISH i could go back.
Okay so the whole essential oil thing.
I still love it.
My husband wasn't too keen on it but surprisingly he LOVES it too.
Thieves is our favorite. Lavender is second.
I diffuse thieves all the time.
And lavender is perfect for sleepy time.
Nathan loves having thieves on his feet and peppermint on his belly.
I think it has helped a lot.
::shrugs::
but that's me! (:
Oh so I joined the YMCA
and I am pretty dang excited...for whenever I decide to go. hahaha
But seriously, my goal is to go at least twice a day. whether it's yoga, zumba, body pump, body jam, etc. I want to go at least 12 times a week.
Not trying to lose weight, trying to tone what gravity has taken over and release some serious stress.
So if anyone is a member of the Y and wants to join, do come with!
Okay so Nathan update.
I got him into ECI (early childhood intervention) through KatyIsd. Just like I did when Kailah was 3.
They did an eval and of course, confirmed what I knew deep down all along.
They don't diagnose anything there but Autism flags were way up there so he will be referred out for an Autism evaluation. He does have some major delays though and will now receive necessary help.
So here is what his delays are and where he is age wise.
He is 27 mths old right now.
adaptive: 9 mths delay, he is in the 17 mth old age
personal-social: 14 mths delay; he is at a 12 mth old age
communication: 17 mths delay; he is at a 9 mth old age
cognitive: 10 mth delay; he is at a 10 mth old age
So it is definitely apparent he will need therapy and further ECI.
I went to a 3 hr meeting yesterday where I met with his intake cordinators and we went over his goals and plans. They know he will for sure transition to PPCD when he is 3 so I signed the paperwork for that.
Like mentioned before, he will be referred out for an autism eval.
as of next week until December he will have:
A case manager who comes out monthly or as needed
A Early intervention specialist who comes out once a week for 45 mins
An Occupational therapist who will come out every other week for 45 mins
An Behavior specialist who will come out every other week for 45 minutes
and a nutritionist who will come as needed to monitor and assist with eating/nutrition
Nathan struggles with getting his words out. He can talk but not like a typical 2 year old. They will be teaching him sign language as they help me work with him on speech. He will not be able to do group therapy until late summer because his social skills are just not where they should be. It would cause horrible fits and extreme stress with further delay if we did so. However they do want me to introduce him slowly to other children. His vestibular system is off so OT is what will help him in that area.
It is really common in children with autism to struggle with gravity and being unable to control their own movement. His brain doesn't understand that when he is in a car or moving object, that he cannot control it. Therefore his body freaks out and sometimes causes him to vomit.
This may seem like a lot and it is. I am really okay. I knew this already. I think it would have been harder if it was my first time or I was in denial but it's not. I did this with Kailah so I knew what to expect and I am okay with that. It won't be his crutch. My goal for early intervention is to get him the help he needs now so like my mom said, "he will be a productive member of society". He can be independent and he can survive alone. Right now, without ECI his future of survival is rough. He could be made fun of, injured, or emotionally confused or even abused by others. So I am thrilled and blessed to have this ECI program. It has done so much for Kailah and I know it will help Nate. This will help him to become successful and productive and independent. I look forward to watching him grow and learn and catch up to his peers. It's not a race. But I do want to see him be able to interact with other children and communicate with us as well as understand the world around him.
He starts therapy next week so I will be sure to keep you all posted on that! (:
By the way, he switched to a big boy bed a few days ago.
It has been going super awesome!
We are so proud!
We tried to do away with crib and "baba" (two birds, one stone)
BUT it's not time for baba to go yet (he flung his poo at me when I tried to take it away) (one giant poop)
So we will wait....
...and that's okay. <3
We will get there soon enough!
xoxo
-3rd shot of Starbucks coming right up-
UGH!
BTW...keep your sons away.
I will beat them with a shovel.
So anyways, she is blaring Katy Perry and we pull up to the guitar lessons and I said, "oh it ended just in time" and she says, "I know, right?!"
STOP GROWING UP!! :,(
And please don't say, "ohh I told you you would miss the small days"
That's the WORST thing to say to a mama whose kid is growing up. Save it for my funeral.
So besides the fact that my oldest is growing up, she is starting swim team soon and EVER so excited. I was looking at her baby shower and infant pictures and bawling.
How I WISH i could go back.
Okay so the whole essential oil thing.
I still love it.
My husband wasn't too keen on it but surprisingly he LOVES it too.
Thieves is our favorite. Lavender is second.
I diffuse thieves all the time.
And lavender is perfect for sleepy time.
Nathan loves having thieves on his feet and peppermint on his belly.
I think it has helped a lot.
::shrugs::
but that's me! (:
Oh so I joined the YMCA
and I am pretty dang excited...for whenever I decide to go. hahaha
But seriously, my goal is to go at least twice a day. whether it's yoga, zumba, body pump, body jam, etc. I want to go at least 12 times a week.
Not trying to lose weight, trying to tone what gravity has taken over and release some serious stress.
So if anyone is a member of the Y and wants to join, do come with!
Okay so Nathan update.
I got him into ECI (early childhood intervention) through KatyIsd. Just like I did when Kailah was 3.
They did an eval and of course, confirmed what I knew deep down all along.
They don't diagnose anything there but Autism flags were way up there so he will be referred out for an Autism evaluation. He does have some major delays though and will now receive necessary help.
So here is what his delays are and where he is age wise.
He is 27 mths old right now.
adaptive: 9 mths delay, he is in the 17 mth old age
personal-social: 14 mths delay; he is at a 12 mth old age
communication: 17 mths delay; he is at a 9 mth old age
cognitive: 10 mth delay; he is at a 10 mth old age
So it is definitely apparent he will need therapy and further ECI.
I went to a 3 hr meeting yesterday where I met with his intake cordinators and we went over his goals and plans. They know he will for sure transition to PPCD when he is 3 so I signed the paperwork for that.
Like mentioned before, he will be referred out for an autism eval.
as of next week until December he will have:
A case manager who comes out monthly or as needed
A Early intervention specialist who comes out once a week for 45 mins
An Occupational therapist who will come out every other week for 45 mins
An Behavior specialist who will come out every other week for 45 minutes
and a nutritionist who will come as needed to monitor and assist with eating/nutrition
Nathan struggles with getting his words out. He can talk but not like a typical 2 year old. They will be teaching him sign language as they help me work with him on speech. He will not be able to do group therapy until late summer because his social skills are just not where they should be. It would cause horrible fits and extreme stress with further delay if we did so. However they do want me to introduce him slowly to other children. His vestibular system is off so OT is what will help him in that area.
It is really common in children with autism to struggle with gravity and being unable to control their own movement. His brain doesn't understand that when he is in a car or moving object, that he cannot control it. Therefore his body freaks out and sometimes causes him to vomit.
This may seem like a lot and it is. I am really okay. I knew this already. I think it would have been harder if it was my first time or I was in denial but it's not. I did this with Kailah so I knew what to expect and I am okay with that. It won't be his crutch. My goal for early intervention is to get him the help he needs now so like my mom said, "he will be a productive member of society". He can be independent and he can survive alone. Right now, without ECI his future of survival is rough. He could be made fun of, injured, or emotionally confused or even abused by others. So I am thrilled and blessed to have this ECI program. It has done so much for Kailah and I know it will help Nate. This will help him to become successful and productive and independent. I look forward to watching him grow and learn and catch up to his peers. It's not a race. But I do want to see him be able to interact with other children and communicate with us as well as understand the world around him.
He starts therapy next week so I will be sure to keep you all posted on that! (:
By the way, he switched to a big boy bed a few days ago.
It has been going super awesome!
We are so proud!
We tried to do away with crib and "baba" (two birds, one stone)
BUT it's not time for baba to go yet (he flung his poo at me when I tried to take it away) (one giant poop)
So we will wait....
...and that's okay. <3
We will get there soon enough!
xoxo
-3rd shot of Starbucks coming right up-
