To new adventures

As most of you know, I will be homeschooling this Fall. 

4 kiddos

different curriculum.

Peoples idea of homeschooling is....well, it's interesting.

My idea or let's just say my goal is this.....

Since we're still in our rental we will spend this next year figuring out what curriculums work best for each kid. We won't have a major room set up because, well we are kinda cramped with space.

I know some people don't understand our reasoning for homeschooling

but everyone is different. We all have expectations and personal aspects when it involves our children.

In my household, public education is not working for us. My kids are not gaining anything. And I am not happy, year after year. So it is time we move on to something else.

Will you homeschool them until college?

I honestly have no idea. My plan is to homeschool until highschool and then place them back in to public education. But if my child is not happy and wants to continue staying home to gain their education, then so be it. I can personally see my 7 yr old being this way. She's like me, she doesn't work well with other humans. *wink wink*

So what happens after you move out of the rental?

We want land. Lots of land. Unrestricted land. We are not fond of HOAs. And honestly we dont want neighbors within half a mile of us so the whole question about how your neighbors house looks is not an issue. We want lots of animals. I mean, we have a lot now but oh man...put me on land and imagine the animals I could have. We have thought of having a sanctuary or a rescue or maybe a boarding facility. Not sure. The ideas just roll. I do want my kids to be exposed to nature. And to learn how to nurture. 

Proverbs 12:10

"A righteous man hath regard for the life of his beast, but the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel"

 

I found this scripture and it is by far my favorite. Too often you hear people say "it's just a 'insert type of animal'."

But it's like I often say....Noah built an ark for a reason. Animals are Gods creatures too so we should treat them just as we would any human. 

 

 

 

But back to the homeschool and land business. I want my kids to explore. climb trees, play and get dirty in the creek, explore the tall grass and create fun imaginative games. I want them to know and experience the world around them. To see what a firefly is and how fascinating they are. How plants take root and grow with water and sun right before their eyes. To see an animal give birth and watch as the mother nurtures her young. Teaching the boys how to become good fathers and husbands and the girls to be caring and loving wives and mothers. 

 

I never saw myself living that life. In fact I despised it. But now I cant see myself doing anything else. Even if its just a little old farmhouse or simple mobile home on a piece of land....I could make do. I think my kids would gain so much and become better people living the country life. 

 

And crazy as it sounds, I think it would make me a better mom and wife.

i've neglected my health for a long time. And it has only gotten worse with time. It has made me an angry bitter woman. I dont feel like I am in pain but I know I must be because of how mean I get.

I dont like the person I have become. She makes me angry. Makes me hurt more.

Its not fair to my family. For them to see me be so mean. So frail.

I need fresh air. To touch dirt. Be barefoot. Cook and make a mess with my babies without tearing in to them every 5 seconds. To smell hard work and taste rain. To roll in the fields and hum with tune of the birds in the trees. To hear nothing but nature around me as I soak up the sun. To finally smile at the sound of my babies playing and having fun.

To feel good. 

to find me.

And to be a better person. 

Its a dream. A dream I hope one day to make reality. Until then, we live in the 'burbs and begin our new adventure of homeschooling. I am really excited. And so happy to have family supporting me. My mom being a retired teacher is a HUGE help with getting the curriculum and helping me figure it all out.  I am so very appreciative.

Summer is just about here and we plan to stay busy.

Lots of family activities planned and summer camps. 

 

I am currently not taking on any photo sessions. Trying to get personal things figured out and get my health back on the right track as best as I can. 

 

I miss writing so I might start just writing or blogging to myself. ha! 

 

Heart,

-Amanda-